My second pregnancy has come to an end. I had spotting and mild cramping on Thursday evening and Friday. Saturday morning I did about a 2 mile run with Desmond hoping it could help things get moving. I felt like I was having a heavy period by mid-day but it was very strange knowing this was a miscarriage not a period. We went to Costco and around 5 pm I told Davin I needed to go home. My cramps were actually starting to hurt and I was feeling pretty crummy. As I visited the restroom while Davin checked out I thought, “I should be more compassionate toward people during the regular course of my day. You never know what someone’s going through. Here I am going through a miscarriage at Costco and no one knows.”
Once we were home about all I could do was lay on the couch with the heat pad. I think the heat helped but there were a few cramps I had to deliberately make myself relax through and just wait for it to pass. Davin was sweet and served me dinner on the couch. Around 7 pm the cramps had subsided and while Davin was putting Desmond to bed I visited the bathroom. There it was. So this is the end.
My bleeding has been much lighter since then with no cramps and I imagine it will all be done soon. I feel relieved that the worst of it was short and not that painful. I feel a lingering sadness that I will never know my second baby. He or she was really only alive for about three and a half weeks. So short! May God bless us soon with a third child who is healthy and thriving for many years to come.
